For so long, I have harboured all of this.
(This is my secondary blog so be aware that I am unable to follow you back.)
Scared that I won’t be able to lose the weight again. Scared that I’ll lose the weight again and not want to stop. Scared that my hair will fall out and my heart will hurt again. Scared that I’ll never eat normally, that I’ll be forever living on 500 calories or less. Scared that I’ll go mad and binge and put all the weight on again.
Scared of failing.
I’m petrified and I can’t live like this.